I can't bear to think you are not with me..

Why do am I feeling everything that I wasn't suppose to feel..
Badtrip.. Nalulungkot talaga aku.. Ewan ku talaga.. I don't think I over reacted.. I think normal lang talaga na ganito maramdaman ku..

The thought that he's gonna be in someplace else far away from me.. That there is just one chance that I could be with him in a week makes me really sad.. Mamimiss ku siya.. Lagi ku nga iniisip na.. I hope he's with me.. I wish.. I could say how much I feel.. Ang hirap pala nung ganun.. Na sobrang sanay ka na anjan lang siya malapet sayo then at the end.. Boom! Biglang ganun.. Hindi sa di ko naiintindihan.. Actually I do.. Its reasonable naman why he will not be with me anymore.. They needed a brand new house...

(Curse you ONDOY! ggrr!!)

Naiintindihan ku.. I know I do.. Ganun naman talaga.. Wala akung other choice.. I understand.. But I can't help not be sad.. Parang ambigat sa loob.. Remembering everything that I used to do with him.. Gosh.. Napapaiyak aku.. Even last Sunday.. I was crying quietly sa Church while listening to the mass.. I was shaking my head off coz my eyes won't stop.. He was beside me.. I was holding his arms.. He was saying I should stop crying.. He wipe my tears away.. Pero umiiyak pa din aku... Di ku talaga napigilan.. Parang I was having flashbacks... I swear.. Sabi ku mamimiss ku siya.. I can't bear not to think.. Para kasing..

Alam mo yung.. Feeling mu mahahati yung puso mu kasi malayo siya sayo? Na parang di mu maexpalin how feel about it.. Ambigat ng loob mu? Na mangyayari na malalayo siya sayo? I mean.. I feel it.. Its so real.. Wala pa aku sa actual situation pero iyak na ku ng iyak.. Di ku talaga mapigilan.. 2months is so short.. I wonder kung mapapaaga pa..

Haayy.. Manila (Almost Q.C na) to Ilaya.. Wonder how our love story would be..
I wish we could work this out.. Mahihirapan talaga aku.. Darn..