Flashbacks due to boredom.. =/

So.. Bored..

Alot of things have been moving in my mind..

Grr!! Well...

Nakaka buryo naman ohh... Kasi.. Or I am badly bored...

Nakupo lang aku...

Sometimes I feel like I am having an outer body experience.. Tss..
I could hear Trike sa labasan namin.. Nakaupo lang aku.. Staring at the sky...

I honestly hate to have flashbacks or even to think about things deeply...
It sucked! Ugh..

I think about a lot of things.. Especially.. Memories.. This cuts out the boredom I am badly having now.. It all happen 2 days ago..

I remember me.. Last summer being addicted sa computer game!
GRANDCHASE... Sounds familiar? Tell me about it.. Hmpf...
I met alot of new pipz down there pluz.. I enjoyed playing that game..
Feeling ku baby aku dun.. Weak kasi character ku dun.. Like I was bound to lose if no one protected me.. Its an odd feeling.. At the same time... Its flattering..

I miss it somehow.. But I am never coming back.. I let myself to remember how much I enjoyed playing that game.. How I make schedules for that game..

Dati kasi wala pa kaming connection dito sa house so I have to rent.. And..
I look forward to go Online in the afternoon.. Naging habbit ku na maglaro every afternoon..

I was a fan.. I couldn't help myself.. And I look forward sa mga guildmates ku...
Due to my addiction.. nag join pa ku ng Gulid.. OMG.. =p

Well.. It wasn't so bad.. Actually.. Its nice to know them.. ^_^
I am loving that.. And somehow.. My life was a little complicated that time.. And in order to forget.. I would play for hours.. Because I know.. When its all over.. I would be feeling the emptiness again..

Para akung sira.. I thought of something up.. Para akung sira talaga.. I was having flashbacks.. I woke up to the thought I was trying not to think about...

Hinarang ku na nga.. Pero wala.. Toh kasing utak ku ehh!! (Sinisi ehh nuh! =p)
I remember a particular event.. And I hated myself for remembering that..

I remember one particular member sa gulid namen.. I remember him..

I remember me.. In a computer house with tears escaping my eyes..

DARN!!!!!

I never want to remember that part.. I'm so sure.. I remember that.. Like it happened yesterday.. Para akung engot nung hapon na yun..

It was a funny memory.. Ipinagdasal ku at that particular moment.. I was wishing that the person I am talking through that monitor to be beside me.. I closed my eyes.. I was trying to absorb whatever "he" said..

I found myself having a hard time breathing.. Trembling.. Ugh.. It was so stupid.. I felt like an idiot remembering that.. Tsk..

Sa lahat naman kasi ng papasok sa utak ku.. Yun pa! Grr!!
But its alright.. I continued my day dreaming..

"He" was the like a hero.. Who came down out of nowhere to rescue my conciousness..

Haayyy.. I hate having a long memory! Sometimes, I want to shut my brain.. Para di aku makaalala ng kung anu anu.. Para kasing.. Ugh! Basta!

Kung ang normal person.. Ang Memory storage niya.. Siguro.. Mga..

2Gig yung mental storage nila.. (Kinumpara sa memory card.. Tss!! hahaha! =p)

But me? I think.. My Memory storage is up to 8Gig? Mga ganun..
I see my past memories.. Clear.. I can remember the dialogues too! I hate it..

Anyway.. Well I was really having a hard time on my life that time.. But then.. "he"
was so familiar.. O ganun lang talaga personality niya?

I would dream of him.. (I felt like a todler dreaming about toys.. =p) But it was a friendly dream not a romantic one..

His familiarity shocked me.. Right through my bones.. I felt chills.. Running down through my spine whenever that enters my mind.. I remember making blog posts in my old blog just for him.. It was so off... I can't have it both ways and again.. I was MISUNDERSTOOD... Togoingkzz..

Then I was awake..

Ahaayy.. What duh? That was all I could say..

Para akung adik nung isang araw.. (its a good thing I was in my room =p )

I stared at the sky once more.. And I wonder what is he doing right now.. I wish he's okay.. My Rescuer.. I let out a deep sigh.. But I smiled and shook my head.. Ahayy.. Kung anu anu nanaman kasi pumapasok sa isip ku..

Biglang nagtext si Luvie.. Aruy! =p

Then I continued to do the things I have to do..

It was just.. So funny to make me realize that.. I could really remember..

Flashbacks make me shake alot.. And goosebumps are present too..

Its so awkward to remember things like that.. Di ku alam dapat maging reaction ku..

But I don't regret that.. No.. That's not the point..
I just ran out of things to say whenever I remember how I felt.. And one blink of an eye.. It was all gone.. Hmpf.. =/

And when I remember it well.. Its a little uncomfortable..
But..
I talked to him yesterday..
He's quite fine and he's still friendly.. =p

Ahayy! It felt good talking to him again.. Its nice to know he still remembers me.. Ohh well..


P.S

My heart is already owned! I just can't help sharing this..

Luvie.. You already know how much you mean to me.. So there's no point for feeling Jealous! hihihi! ^_^

Kitinn..