Yeah. It all ends. I have to survive it.

I know. This blog isn't too much for me to spare time.

I wasn't able to write things lately. Maybe I'm too caught up with my other new hobbies.

*sigh

Here goes my old story..

Way back, like 4 years ago, My life had a huge difference.

My Mom left, Yeah she did. My dad started telling lies. So much that it hurts.

Mom decided to leave. That story was in my old blog.

Any how, everything went blurry for me.

I was sixteen. With no one to take care of me besides myself.

In honest to goodness, I was really affected. I was young and I didn't deserve to be left alone by my parents.

They were there I mean physically, but it bothers me so much that we aren't leaving in the same house anymore.

It was summer. Yeah. I should go out, find my summer get away, but four years ago.

I was a wrecked teenager who doesn't have anything.

I was lost. Honestly, it was the hardest feeling.

And the way I see how to survive that dilemma was to go on my way.

Liquor was always in my system, I smoked, I stay late outside partying, I gone out road tripping.

I was flushed. I felt no one cared anymore. No one would nag, no one would get mad if do such stupid things.

I did it my way.

Few months later.

My Mom was back. Finally I redeemed my old self again. I was really back to normal. I realized that I was really lost that time. Some things will never change but all I know is I learned. I really did learned so many things.

I saw how cruel life gets when you're so not yourself, without someone to check you out.

Yeah I was young. How couldn't I be so stupid. I didn't know anything.

That was 4 years ago.

Now after 4 years, its kinda happening again.

Like a deja vu all over again.

I knew better.

I just have to deal with it.

That's life.

I have to keep moving forward and move on. No matter how dull life gets.

I those people who would love and never leave me. To give me courage and strength whenever times gets so hard.

And..

I know God would have reasons to love me more.

He will never leave me. I know that.

I just have to stay strong.

Have faith.

PRAY.