Yeah. It all ends. I have to survive it.

I know. This blog isn't too much for me to spare time.

I wasn't able to write things lately. Maybe I'm too caught up with my other new hobbies.

*sigh

Here goes my old story..

Way back, like 4 years ago, My life had a huge difference.

My Mom left, Yeah she did. My dad started telling lies. So much that it hurts.

Mom decided to leave. That story was in my old blog.

Any how, everything went blurry for me.

I was sixteen. With no one to take care of me besides myself.

In honest to goodness, I was really affected. I was young and I didn't deserve to be left alone by my parents.

They were there I mean physically, but it bothers me so much that we aren't leaving in the same house anymore.

It was summer. Yeah. I should go out, find my summer get away, but four years ago.

I was a wrecked teenager who doesn't have anything.

I was lost. Honestly, it was the hardest feeling.

And the way I see how to survive that dilemma was to go on my way.

Liquor was always in my system, I smoked, I stay late outside partying, I gone out road tripping.

I was flushed. I felt no one cared anymore. No one would nag, no one would get mad if do such stupid things.

I did it my way.

Few months later.

My Mom was back. Finally I redeemed my old self again. I was really back to normal. I realized that I was really lost that time. Some things will never change but all I know is I learned. I really did learned so many things.

I saw how cruel life gets when you're so not yourself, without someone to check you out.

Yeah I was young. How couldn't I be so stupid. I didn't know anything.

That was 4 years ago.

Now after 4 years, its kinda happening again.

Like a deja vu all over again.

I knew better.

I just have to deal with it.

That's life.

I have to keep moving forward and move on. No matter how dull life gets.

I those people who would love and never leave me. To give me courage and strength whenever times gets so hard.

And..

I know God would have reasons to love me more.

He will never leave me. I know that.

I just have to stay strong.

Have faith.

PRAY.

Marmalade Boy ^_^

MARMALADE BOY (1994)

Koishikawa Miki is a typical, ditzy high school girl. Involved with tennis, with plenty of friends, she seems to be living the good life. She thinks nothing of the vacation her parents take to Hawaii … until they return and announce that, not only are they getting a divorce, but that they are getting remarried! Apparently they had affairs with another Japanese couple and have decided to swap spouses. (Wasn’t that the plot of a 70s movie?)

Of course, things only get crazier when she meets the completely aloof, yet oh-so-handsome son of the other couple, Matsuura Yuu. Naturally, despite the fact they’re practically step-siblings, they fall for each other. But they try to keep it a secret from their family, and most of the school. Never mind that the rest of the school is preoccupied with their *own* jumbled relationships.

— (The Synopsis)

Believe it or not. I fell in love with this series.

Nung bata pa ako. I think I was 11 years old that time. I used to wake up during summers at exactly 8.30am

Because the show will start at 9.00am.

Nag air siya sa GMA 7 before. Up to Episode 26 lang ang pinalabas sa TV.

I was so frustrated when they stopped airing this series. Iyak ako ng iyak as in to the highest level. Hindi pa uso noon ang DSL, Broadbands, etc. Pinagtyagaan ko na iresearch tong series na toh kahit dial up alng ang connection namin sa bahay noon.

Iyak ako ng iyak when I see their pictures together. The Main Characters. Miki and Yuu. Walang videos available. Or you have to buy DVD volumes which is only available overseas.

I was so frustrated because up 76 series yun. I missed 50 episodes. I was so sad.

My Tita in Chicago bought me the 1st volume of the series. She says, it was too expensive if she bought all four volumes.

I was kinda sad but at least had one volume.

When I was in first year college, I decided to make some research about it.

There are some episodes uploaded in youtube.com

Kaso, putol putol ehh so I couldn’t understand it very well. Wala pang ending. Hmp.

And then, 2 years after.

I was watching “Tanging Yaman” the teleserye online.

I missed a lot of episodes and I’m an avid fan of it. :)

Then I wondered out of the blue that I wanted to watch Marmalade Boy too.

I tried to research again for videos. Then I saw it.

Veoh.com answered my prayers.

Napanuod ko siya. English dub all 76 episodes in 3 straight days!

I was so happy that I finally finished the series.

This was my first love anime. Marmalade boy.

One day. I’ll have the four volumes of it. I swear when the time comes. When I have enough money to buy the last three missing volumes.

I would have it. I’ll find it. :))