Its nice to be taken.. =p

Well...

For starters.. I am here at the University Library.. Writing again.. Ohh sure.. Its for free.. Since the library is using limited site and blogger is not blocked!! Thank heavens for that!

I could write here without renting or paying.. Hahaha!! Ohh sweet victory!! =p

Too bad I am having a short quiz afterwards and I have to review..

But can you believe I can't resist not to write? Hahahahaha!! Watta silly joke.. =)

But I guess its true.. Especially when I am loving my privilege.. =)



What should I write? Yeah.. Not same old stories...


There's alot of things that I really want to say... Honestly.. There is alot of events in my life.. Its just that... Well I am quite busy.. Hmpf.. That sucks..



Anyhow.. Let's start..

Someone told me that being in a relationship... Is hard..

Committing yourself to other person is no joke.. I can agree with that..
Giving all the time and effort is not an easy thing to do..
Sharing it all at the same and BALANCING YOURSELF is not easy as well.. But if you're willing, what should be the problem right?

I get it.. Distractions can make a tremendous change in your life..

But hey.. Its up to you to balance it and find the other way around...

Some people told me that..


I AM A HOPELESS ROMANTIC...


Well.. I can agree to some points.. But not in literal points of views...


They told me you can longer play around and hang out with some other guys... Or in short..

You can't date other guys simply because your taken...

Yeah.. I know.. Some people just don't see the contentment when you're already committed that's why they say its hard to tie yourself up to a person.. And to one person only..



I mean.. What's the big deal about it?

I am so not gonna deny that alot of guys are still asking me out though they already know I have a boyfriend..

I don't see the logic especially when I see their motives..

I know they like me.. Not in a way that friends are supposed to be..


I don't know how to react or to say to what they feel for me...

I am flattred somehow but sometimes.. It is bugging me alot..

I don't know to turn down ostentatious guys.. Ugh..

I am so being nice.. And I hate it... But I know where is my stand..

My stand is.. Satisfaction to whoever I have in this very moment...

Ohh Love its on its way.. =)


People should see their limit in terms of dating when your already committed to someone else.. Coz in the end??

It will just bring out some pieces of trash that you will be needing to clean.. And It will really suck.. =)

Its Okay to date friends.. I mean guys.. When you're in a relationship.. Just don't lie to your better half about it.. And just be sure to..

The motive of that guy who wants to date you is that.. He likes you to be his friend.. And that's just it.. ^_^

You can still live your normal life even though your taken already..

You can still do what you want..

If he/she does not understand.. Well.. Explain him/her to him very briefly..

If he/she can't cope up.. Then help him/her..

See? Its a matter of conversation.. ^_^

Haaayyy.. Ignore my emotions.. I am just too happy to be taken... ^_^

Kitinn...

Filled up with emotions...

Here I am... Looking like a friggin idiot staring at the ceiling.. Staring in my deep thoughts... Thinking of something to happen.. Hoping for something I really want to happen...

Tss... I was so Stressed out this past few days.. Wishing it would subside but, it never did.. All I could do was to sigh..

I am literally dead tired about my daily routine.. Its tedious and obviously tiring and risky for my opinion.. Based on what happened to me last time.. (SNATCH!)

Like I was in this maze and I have to think and function fast because I would be damned..

Same as old stories.. School is very stressful.. What's new about that right?

But, its hard coping up once your tired of Doing something you don't want to do for a WHILE..

Not that I grew tired of what I want in my crazy ass life.. That's not my point.. But I was trying to think a lot about the things I was tired of...

Specially my toxic sched in school..

Yes my main reason why I was staring at the blank was because of school.. Like I would explode the moment someone opened my brain up..

Been thinking a lot as always.. Sometimes I hate it.. But what could I do?

It was me.. Hmpf! Thinking and curious about so many things..


I couldn't function properly like there was no space in my life anymore... I couldn't move like I was in a cage.. Limited.. Always limited..

Don't make some criticisms to what I am saying now.. It is my heart who is talking.. Not my brain anymore.. Like finally.. Even it is so hard to understand.. At least.. I have the chance to say what is the true meaning of mixed emotions..

Hmpf... I am always open to learning.. I know I am.. I know what I am into.. But.. How could you learn with people who doesn't understand a word they are saying?

Maybe they do understand the words but do the people they teach understands it well?

Honestly.. I really hate people who have a lot to say but does not bother to make sensitive feelings about the people who is listening to them.. Ugh!

What an Ass! Makes me so irratated...

Age is not the measure of knowledge.. I believe that..

Not in a literal sense but..

Its True at one point.. Right?

Meaning.. sometimes old people or even the most intelligent person can still have the maturity of a 15 years old.. What the heck.. But its True.. And that fact is adorably stupid..

Bitterness is piled up in my brain.. Coz not all Old people is right..

What do they really know? I might be so rude about it... But the question is..

Am I speaking of the truth? Maybe..

Hmmm... What else do I want to feel this very moment..


Ahhhh.. UNFAIR...

Hmm.. Question..


Why do people think they are really lacking of courage to persue what they want?

Like me...

I have been dreaming all this time.. But where is my dream now? Is there some posibilities that maybe.. It will come true?

My answer?


NO...

What's new about me failing again with what I want..

Yeah.. Dude.. I know.. I know.. It takes time.. What the heck.. =/

Not that I am being impatient about that..

I just know.. It wouldn't help encouraging me coz I have been doing all I can..

ALL I CAN TO MAKE THIS RECKLESS DREAM POSSIBLE...

But still..

I am empty handed..

Rotten luck..

Hmpf.. Not that I am blaming someone for something I couldn't have..

If I have to blame someone right now..

The failure is mine.. And its my pleasure to take that blame..

It is a lame dream and a selfish one too...

I am asking for something that is not for me..


YET..


Its just that.. Its hard to imagine me failing and still tries hard at the end of the day.. Lying on my bed.. Still wishing and hoping that maybe there is an instant miracle.. That might save me from distress.. That would subside my depression.. But still tries for tomorrow.. Again and again..

There's a tons of things that I want.. But I am not asking for that.. No..
I never said anything about it.. And if I want something..

Then I kept my mouth shut..


Is that a bad thing to keep something that would make you upset if you already knew what its the answer if you told someone about it?


That would make me sigh alot..

Makes me cry.. Makes me upset.. Makes me lonely.. Makes me disappointed.. Makes me feel I am so helpless...


Not that I am alone or something..

I know those people who loves me and I will always be thankful that they are with me..

But not even them could help me in this trap that I am forever feeling at the same rate everyday..

Words are really noble and helpful.. But still.. Its hard.. Not to think about it..

Some thinks I am stupid for trying.. Some thinks that I am desperate..

Some thinks.. It so patient of me to wait.. Some thinks Its a dream of an Immature..

A stupid Dream..

Yeah.. I heard a lot already.. But I wonder if I will ever stop dreaming..

Still in my thoughts.. Wishing and trying it to make it possible...

Dude.. Yeah.. What the heck am I talking about.. Stupid me.. Don't laugh.. Its true.. And you know it.. We were in this library and me typing this with some tears.. But I will laugh later.. Don't worry about it... =)


Luvie?

Yeah you.. Iloveyou for always..

Second part of this is under construction.. =p





















KITINN..

Summary of Report...

School is very stressful..

Guaranteed Danfruff on your scalp dahil sa Stress...

Haaayy.. Pero wala.. Kelangan Go ka lng..


Simula plng.. Humataw agad ehh..

Anyways.. Alot things happened to me.. =/

1st.. I got so scared sa PARANORMAL ACTIVITY! Kainis! Its soo scary..

Akala ku it was real.. Di aku nakatulog for days.. I was the a scared cat that time..

Whew.. But God make some moves for me to remove all the fears sa heart ku.. Its funny coz it was like a simple miracle.. Parang sakto lng kasi but I'm thankful.. My faith is strong.. =)

Secondly.. My fone got snatched sa jeep.. Awch..

I felt so helpless that time..

Pero Aku? Hinabol ku si Kuya.. Lakas ng loob ku..

Too bad.. Di ku siya naabutan at umuwi akung luhaan.. huhu!

Ansakit!

Alam ku na feeling ng mga nanakawan.. Hayyy!!

Anyways.. I so damn worried about the fone snatching thing..

Karma goes around and around..

Its Christmas.. I know how to forgive somehow.. But still.. Di pa din aku nkakamuv on ng bongga.. It felt very wrong pa din whenever naalala ku..

Medjo bitter pah ku but I think I can cope up..

Any how.. My so called "Missing bestfriend" is absent nanaman.. Haayyy..

I don't know... Basta let's talk about it some other time kasi medjo mahaba..

I attended My Bhezzies Swimming party for Luis.. =)

It was kinda overnight.. Hahahaha!!

She was so bitter.. Tsk.. Natamaan ng alak.. I have to pretend that I was drunk for many purposes.. *wink*

Anyhow.. I spent my night with so much energy.. So much Anticipation.. It was one night or morning that I will never forget..

Masarap pala umupo sa bubong! Hahahaha!! *Secret*

Basta its pilingan portion on da go! I am happy about it.. =)

Whew.. O night can make a difference..

Haayyy!!! Di maka muv on!

Darn it!!

Hahahaha!

Anyhow.. Just Got a new fone.. Samsung E250i..

Like that one on top.. Pero purple..

Love it! I am so gonna take care of it..

Special Thanks to... Trizzia..

Tol.. Maraming maraming Salamat.. =)

I'll be busy so expect that I would not write here often.. =)

School is Back.. ^_^

After a long rest for us..

2nd sem started without any one to stop it...

Hahahahaha!!

I was so dead scared when I realize na sobrang babalik na ku sa school..

Not because of something na Takot talaga aku bumalik sa school or anything..

I was scared sa sched ku.. Gosh!! Anu ba yun!! I was sooo not sanay sa sched ku but hey.. My only consolation was that I have a big baon!!

(Ipon mode is increasing!! =p)

Pang gabe kasi at taong hapon aku.. =p

Anyways.. Besides the fact that my sched sucks, I have concerns too.. Like.. My Simple dream to happen.. Honestly.. I'm still waiting for that to happen and I'm doing something about that...

"Ang hirap sa tao, ambisyon ng ambisyon.. Nakahiga naman buong mag hapon."

TRUE! So atleast on my own ways.. I'm trying to make it possible kahit mukang mahirap at impossible yun.. Haaayyy.. Ayan.. Senti mode nanaman aku.. =/

Anu nga bang magagawa ku? Mahirap aku ipinanganak.. Ehh di gumawa ng paraan.. Yun lang yun.. ^_^

Kahit mahirap.. Wala ka naman any other choice ehh.. Just to do it yourself.. Wag ka maglit sa mundo dahil lang walang natulong sayo.. Matuto kang tumulong sa sarili mo mag isa..

At aminin ku man o hindi.. Yun ang ginagawa ku sa ngayon..

Masakit marinig na sasabihin nila sakin palagi..

"May panahon para diyan. Wag mu madaliin."

No offense.. Hindi ku talaga ipinapasok sa utak ku un kahit may point sila But.. I still have my perception in me like:

Honestly.. I don't want to sit down and wait for something to happen.. You have to move para dumating yung oras na yun.. Ikaw kung may magagawa ka.. Gawan mu na ng paraan.. ^_^

Haayyy... Gumagana nanaman ang prinsipyo ni Kitinn.. =p

Well anyhow.. Its hard to adjust at my time.. Pero I like it that way.. Hindi ku kailangan mag madali.. =p

I was like in a stupid in a stupid curfew last sem.. I was obliged to be home before 6pm last sem.. For the sake of the Kiddos sa bahay..

Naa.. I'm not so bitter about that.. Masaya din umuwi ng maaga pero siyempre di ka maka kilos ng maayos..

Ayun lang mahirap talaga.. I felt like I was grounded for months!! Hahahaha!! =p


Nakakapagod lang talaga ngayon kasi Whole day and time moves so slow during my afternoons.. =/

Hate the fact that I'm not craving for school yet.. Di ku pa kasi maramdaman kasi wala pa akung school supplies!! Hahahaha!! =p

But still.. Sabi ku baka maging busy din aku when it the sem is on going na with exams and all.. Katakot yung mga prof ku! Nakuu si God na Bahala sakin.. Gagawin ku nalang best ku in school.. =)

Anyhow.. My sembreak ended.. Many things happened.. Sobra..

A lot of confusion and so much drama from my memory even Temptation us present.. Ugh.... But I'm glad its over.. ^_^

My only lesson for that is....

"PALAWAKIN MO ANG UTAK MO"

Kung makitid lang ehh... Ikaw din lalabas na mali sa mata ng iba kasi di ka marunong makinig at umintindi..

TRUE!!!

Haayy.. Tao nga naman ohh!! Hahaha!! Naaa.. Just make sure that every move you make..

Make sure you're on the right path.. Haayyy.. Glad I was in my right side not with my left!

CORNY! XD

Anyhow.. Still feeling tired.. Ampayat ku nanaman..

I can't manage to eat especially when nag titpid aku... I need money so badly at the moment.. =)

Haaayy.. And about my Luvie??

Still darn stuck with him..
Glad I'm him still..
Coz my Love stood still.. *Inspired*





Kitinn.....

Sharing too much!! =p

Ahaaayy...

Novemeber na??

Hmm.. December na ulit.. Anyways.. Still wanna narrate for what are the Previous events in my life...

Let's start...

Badtrip talaga yang mga bagyo ohh!! Umisa pa tong si Tino!

Nung dumating siya..

Nag lose ang connection namin sa Meralco.. Ayos lang na bumalik siya pero di pa tapos ang escapade namen with the Meralco Connection.. Grrr!!!

That Happened.. I think October 31?

Well.. The next day..

Nov.1.. As planned.. We went home in Batangas!! Its yearly!! Tradition na yun!! Ever since I was young.. Andun kasi yung nakalibing yung loved ones nila Mommy... So.. We always spend our Halloween there..

My Cousins are so the Best!! One of the reason I look forward going to my Mom's hometown was because of them!!

Kami mag pipinsan ang ehh.. Malapit lang ang age range namin.. Aku na ang youngest.. And I am just 18... ^_^

But kahit ganun.. I still find myself enjoying.. We grew up together kasi.. So Ganito kami magbonding!


SHOTS!!

Aruuyy.. Bitin naman Coz we have to go home na.. But still.. I was glad we went home.. Alot of foods and bonding moments with my Family..

"The Malasique Clan" =p

Anyways.. I was happy naman the next day.. Stayed at our house.. As usual.. =p


Nothing so big about this day..

The Next day was special to me..


Its our 7th Month!! Yey!!

Sabi niya.. Mag eenrol daw siya..

Puwersado akung sumama.. La kasi akung money that time.. Libre nalang daw niya aku.. Porket di ku siya matiis nun.. Hmpf..


Anyways.. Kahit puyat aku nun dahil Darn! Lose connection kami.. Wala kaming ilaw... Badtrip talaga.. kami lang walang kuryente!! Di aku nakatulog.. Just for 2 hours lang.. Ehhh.. Sumama pah din aku sa beloved Panget ku!! =p

We have the greatest day naman!! Saya!! I love the fact that I can stay longer with him...

9am to 9pm.. (Wasn't so bad!! Basta siya kasama ku!! =p)

That was one of the best days I can really cherish.. Ahaayy..
Kulet kasi ehh.. Gusto lagi kaming ganun.. Lagi kami mag kausap ng ganun..
Sobarang open minded kami both which I loved.. Sobrang dalang kasi yung ganun samin na magkausap ng.. Seryoso about us and personal pa!! Ansarap ng feeling.. ^_^

Anyhow.. That was one great deal of a day!! Yeesss...
Ansarap din mangasar sa nag pipigil!! Hahahaha!!! (Peace na Panget!! =p)

Ang tanging nakaka inis lang dahil... Dadami na yung pasa ku.. Kakakagat niya sakin!! Hmpf!!! But its olrayt!! Basta siya.. Araw naman namin yun.. Siya yung boss kasi siya financer ku nung day na yun!!! Hahahaha!!

Sobrang Thankful aku sa day na yun.. ^_^

Sobrang busy na kami pag nag start na yung pasukan na.. Haaay..

And its getting nearer Everyday.. =/

Malapet na siya lumayo... But.. What else could I do di ba???

Ahaayy! Ayoko talaga malungkot.. But I can't help it talaga....

But I think kaya ku naman? Yata?

I'll be needing strength.. But I guess I have to practice it now..





CHRISTMAS IS NEAR...

Di ku alam kung matutuwa aku or malulungkot..

1st Gusto ku matuwa kasi kahit pano... I can celebrate my Christmas with him.. Plus Christmas is a great season of the year!! Sobrang saya.. Malamig.. Filipino Traditions and everything would be great!! Sobrang nakakaexcite din naman kahit pano..

Nakakalungkot kasi... Siyempre... I didn't get my simple dream.. Haayyy.. Nakakalungkot pero siyempre.. Wala naman akung magagawa.. ACCEPTANCE lang.. =/

Nakakalungkot din kasi magastos!! I am so badly broke!! Hahahaha!! Magastos talaga ang Pasko but ganun talaga....


Haaayyy.. Sobrang saya ku naun.. I wonder if next events in my life is better or sad.. I have no idea... =/

There's alot going on in my life but.. I think its not the time to share this agad..
Coz.. I am not sure about it yet.. =/

I want an Ostentatious life now.. Coz I am badly desperate..
Pero I know what is right.. I am just tempted but I know its wrong naman..
Got that?


But I don't know of I could play it right but I am badly wishing I could make the right decisions.. Hmpf.. Kaya ku toh.. JUST FOCUS!!! ^_^


Kitinn....